An apologia pro vita sua of a Buddha
Through history – past, present and future –
there are good fellows who apply their effort
imagining to be seeking in themselves
the ultimate Nirvana for getting out of delusion and world.
They unknowingly deceive themselves.
To seek Nirvana is to lose Nirvana.
To seek the Way is to lose the Way.
Even a Buddha attains Buddhahood because
he is not interested in becoming one.
True Nirvana is beyond all else.
It matters not whether one is well versed
in the scriptures and precepts;
It matters not whether one is
a high-ranking professional;
It matters not whether one’s eloquence
like a mountain torrent.
It matters not whether one is sagacious and well-informed.
It only matters if one has
true and genuine insight.
In years past, when I could not yet see clearly,
all the world seemed dark to me.
I could not differentiate light and shade,
neither could I go beyond the two polarities.
I ran around with an excruciating fever in my belly
and with my heart in a flurry,
asking about the Way to unsurpassable Nirvana.
Later I gained strength,
and now am Here Now,
preaching deliverance to you,
Life in the world passes quickly,
and it’s extremely difficult to meet good Teachers;
the fig tree plant only flowers once in 2,500 years.
When some good people hear of a Buddha,
they go asking difficult questions,
trying to shut him up.
Yet, if he was offer them the actualization
of the entire Realization and subsequent corpus,
they would stare dumbfounded,
unable to utter a word.
The inherent principle of Nirvana
cannot be enhanced or realized
by mere theorizing or controversy.
When there is no cloud across the sky,
and the sun shines forth without obstruction,
the serene heavens are radiant with light.
Without a blind spot in one’s Sight,
there are no clouds to obstruct the empty sky – Nirvana.